ESKAPADE

Well, first of all, it’s good to be back here at my wordpress blog because it has been for a few months now that I hadn’t accessed this blog.  The reason is, I was quite too busy looking for a job and also I was so busy looking for  ways to make money here on the internet.  Today, I just don’t why I feel nervous and mostly anxious.  Well, last week I was looking through the craigslist.com website, I was browsing that website because I wanted to look for a home based jobs, specifically web developing, designing, programming, etc…anyway you want to call it then that’s it.  So I found one job post, wherein the employer was looking for a web designer with a web programming experience, at first, I was just thinking of passing my resume through email, but then I saw that the employer left his yahoo messenger id.  I contacted him through yahoo chat, i asked him first if the job is still available or not and he told that indeed he’s still looking for a web designer.  He asked me of what are my skills in web designing and other stuffs like, if ever I’ve had an experience in working for a client.  So those are just the usual things that an employer would normally asked.  Then he asked me if I would love to try working for, he gave me a time frame of 1-2 weeks, then I never hestitated since I still don’t have a job, and I find this as an opportunity of having a job which really suits my degree.  So the following day, or later  that day, he gave tasks to work on, I read those tasks and was quite nervous because there some things that I haven’t done ever since I started to learn web programming.  So I went on, planning and thinking of how to carry out the work, trying to recall all the things that I have learned in web development.

So I spent the entire day of thinking how to do it, practicing some programming stuffs, and trying to look for the resources that might help me out.  After that whole day of planning and thinking, I finally get to start working on the database of the website.  So worked on it, it took me the following to finalize the database, and then I started to work on the pages.  That day also I got to meet through yahoo messenger a fellow worker who has been working with this employer for almost 4 months.  So I chatted with him and asked him a few questions with regards to his work.  He told me some things about the employer, and those things are of course positive ones, and he even gave tips on how to convince or show the employer that I am worthy for the job.  So I really gave my best for this trial, like I would sleep at 4 AM and would usually wake up by 10 or 11 AM, and I just go to work here at home.  I enjoyed the job and I learned a lot of new things which I am sure would help me a lot from this experience.

I even worked on a Sunday and I just never stopped working, I even didn’t think of that despite of all my hard work, I should be aware that this doesn’t guarantee me of a pay.  Still, I went on with the work because an opportunity was offered for me, all I have to do is just show them what I got and just be honest with quite a few things.  Then at some point when I was taking a break, thinking of this job, I had a thought I should still continue looking for other jobs, this is just to give me some buffer, so that if ever the employer doesn’t want my service, then at least I have other options to wait.  In fact I’ve had an interview with another outsourcing company wherein they are looking for web designers as well.  So I frankly told the interviewer that I am still going to wait for the current employer’s decision if he’s going to hire me or not.  I just became honest with them, at least to give me a lesser pressure, and thankfully the interviewer told to just contact them whenever I have made my decision.

So to cut the story short, well right now I’m anxious of nervous of what my employer would tell me.  I asked him if how was my trial but he told me to wait because he’ll go through with the things which I have worked on.   It’s just that I’m quite worried because after this the hardwork, I might just get a thank you from the employer, I do understand that I have agreed to try and I was aware of the risk.  Now, I have a feeling that they’re not really interested with me, although they just gave me a shot, but I do understand that.  They’re looking for someone who’s going to help them improve their business and maybe I’m not fit for them, but these are just my personal assumptions, I’m just anticipating for the bad news.  This is the reason why I really feel nervous right now.  Another reason also was that last week my friends were also hoping to have at least a job like I am having a shot at.  I told just them that I’m under a trial period and that a payment is not a guarantee yet.  For my part, I was happy to let them know that I have this opportunity, but right now, I just heard earlier that they too have a job.  They are working at the University which I graduated last March.  So in just a span of 1 week I felt like the jinx was totally on me, I mean, they have a regular work wherein they’re guaranteed of a pay or a salary.  While me, well, I am just very hopeful of the decision of the employer.  I just really hope that he’ll consider me or for the worst, I just hope that the other company would consider me as well.  At least next week I don’t end up again as a bum looking for a job to earn money for a living.